A blank wall
“But you know that disappointment is just the action of your brain readjusting itself to reality after discovering things are not the way you thought they were" I heard someone say. Or maybe it was what they should be, or used to be.
I mull this over as stare at the wall. This big blank wall with all the promise of a new creative solution. And I cannot for the life of me decide what I want to put there. So my mind wanders and ponders over my life and all of who I am. I think like my life, I am hesitating the commitment of putting that nail in the wall. Is this what I really want to put there? Living disappointed or being afraid of disappointment will do that do you.
Make you question
and second guess.
Over think and re-analyze.
In other words, drive yourself crazy or paralyze any forward movement.
A blank wall waiting for an idea. And another day goes by.
Make you question
and second guess.
Over think and re-analyze.
In other words, drive yourself crazy or paralyze any forward movement.
A blank wall waiting for an idea. And another day goes by.
Martin Luther King Jr said, "There can be no deep disappointment where there is not deep love."
Love of family, friends, passions, moments in time you hold fast to.....and all susceptible to disappointing us. Yet it's the love that you hold to really. The deep love. The Jesus-type love.
After denying Jesus 3 times.....Then Peter remembered the word Jesus had spoken: "Before the rooster crows, you will disown me three times." And he went outside and wept bitterly. Matt 26:75
So much disappointment all around that day....... Jesus knowing Peter would deny and then Peter becoming disappointed in himself.
It's the weeping bitterly, the regret, the blank wall that lingers, that gets me. Rips me up really.
The amazing part is the story doesn't end there and Peter goes on to fulfill his destiny, the great commission. Calling out to all of us who have been disappointed, and have bitterly disappointed. We get another chance.
Another day to love deeply,
brave hard conversations
or offer an encouraging word.
Another day to love deeply,
brave hard conversations
or offer an encouraging word.
To apologize or forgive.
And let go.
Disappointments will visit again. For me, it's learning to breath easier along with them but allowing love to reign anyway. And as I find more grace in my self-disappointment, the openness for others in theirs, offers freedom for growth for all of us.
Removing the fear of a wrong nail hole allows creativity to flow
and a blank wall becomes full.